Generations

I must be in some kind of nostalgic mood. I started copying to the computer a lettre sent from my dad's mom to my step mom about 25 years ago. It all details how my grandmom used to make turkey curry. It is quite a haphazard recipe frankly, but luckily, I have some clue how to make it. My mom used to make something very similar with shrimp. It's basically a curried gravy with a meat put in it. It is not the indian style curry I make. 'Scuse the ego there, but I am a darn good cook really, with no one to cook for much.
The lettre for me is really a look into my grandmother's personality. I only got to know her after I was in my teens, and only had maybe ten years before she passed. My grandfather and I had a special relationship, started whe nI was quite small by lettres he would write me. I wish I still had them. I remember the stories he sent.
And I really miss my grands, all of them. My very military family- four generations worth- has never been physically close to one another, so relationships have had to develop in other ways. I knew Granny and Gramps, and Diddy and Pop, better than my sibs, due to proximity. I got to have a little time with them as a young adult, which I don't think many of the others did. I wish I had had more.

I think I will have to publish the lettre once I get it copied.

Who invented

Mother's Day and why?

Okay, appreciating one's mom is a good thing, but shouldn't be limited to a day. Frankly, other than the sales this day generates, I cannot see why it is done.

Why am I grumpy?

Well, my mom's gone 9 years now, my step-mom only a few monthe, and frankly, that makes today lonesome and unhappy. Even my "kids" and grands cannot change the overwhelming sense of loss. There are so many things I would love to be able to share with my mother.....I miss her more than I ever thought I would. We had become friends, gone thru adventures and trials together, and frankly, I have felt like an orphan since her passing. I am finding a friendship with my father since Mary's illness that is probably going to do this to me all over again, and then Father's Day will suck too.

I think the point to be grasped from all this is not to take one's family for granted. It can change in a heartbeat, and then those words can never be said to one's own satisfaction.

I bought two miniature rose plants, crimson for my mother, white for Mary. I am deciding whether to put them outside or not- Texas heat kills a lot of things too easily, and that would not help my feelings right now. Besides, I am the only one who understands what I mean by them, so my being able to see them everyday might make more sense. Will have to look up their sensitivity.

Right now, food, shower, and get on with the day. Staying distracted will definitely help.

Happy Mother's......don't make it just a day.