Mother's Day and why?
Okay, appreciating one's mom is a good thing, but shouldn't be limited to a day. Frankly, other than the sales this day generates, I cannot see why it is done.
Why am I grumpy?
Well, my mom's gone 9 years now, my step-mom only a few monthe, and frankly, that makes today lonesome and unhappy. Even my "kids" and grands cannot change the overwhelming sense of loss. There are so many things I would love to be able to share with my mother.....I miss her more than I ever thought I would. We had become friends, gone thru adventures and trials together, and frankly, I have felt like an orphan since her passing. I am finding a friendship with my father since Mary's illness that is probably going to do this to me all over again, and then Father's Day will suck too.
I think the point to be grasped from all this is not to take one's family for granted. It can change in a heartbeat, and then those words can never be said to one's own satisfaction.
I bought two miniature rose plants, crimson for my mother, white for Mary. I am deciding whether to put them outside or not- Texas heat kills a lot of things too easily, and that would not help my feelings right now. Besides, I am the only one who understands what I mean by them, so my being able to see them everyday might make more sense. Will have to look up their sensitivity.
Right now, food, shower, and get on with the day. Staying distracted will definitely help.
Happy Mother's......don't make it just a day.
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